I know I'm not completely over him. He still crosses my mind several
times a day, but with each one of those times, a feeling of contempt also passes
through my heart. Maybe if this happens enough, my heart will become completely
hardened to him, and I'll get to the point where he doesn't affect me anymore. Well atleast I hope. I do think about him... a lot and my friends dont help much with that because they are constantly talking about him also. Its really annoying that I want to get over a boy that I never even dated. I think its funny to see him though. Because now that he has played me again I see him all the time. Everytime we pass in the hallway I just start talking with my friends and we start laughing, he gives me the puppy eyes all the time though. I hope that he sees how good I am without him. And I really hope that this new girl that hes dating was really worth losing someone like me. I can honestly say though, If he started talking to me again, I would flirt back and give him another chance and wathc him screw me over slowly again. But you live and you learn so if I still let him do it, I havent learned anything yet. I do have to thank him though, he gave me one of the best years of my life, he made me relize what I want in a guy, but most importantly, he tought me how to not fall so fastly for someone.
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So track has been everyday this week so if I am not on here for awhile I am really sorry.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
Can't.Get.Over.Him.
I texted yet again today. This time he texted back though. I made an excusse to text him. I told myself that I needed to tell him about the volleyball games. What the heck is wrong with me that I have to lie to myself to text him? Things really bad are going on. I shouldnt be doing this. Its pathic.
Sports.Sports.Sports.
I can honestly say I have no idea how people do not play sports throughout their school lifes. Thats all I do. People dont do anything and I'm in everything it kind of scares me. ahahh. Anyways sports are good for many things, welp, atleast for me. They can help you gain a bunch of things like new friendships and just feeling better about yourself. Personally I'm a flirt! Thats what I like to do, but I dont really like to date because it makes things offical. Anyways with sports you can talk to as much guys as you want and ever kick some of their butts if your fast like me. Hahah. I always face people in hurdles. They are my favorite thing to do for track and its my first year doing them. All of my friends do them to because I wanted someone to do them with me. But the great things about sports is that you dont have to have friends in a particular group or activity because you make a bunch of new ones. I also like sports because you get to meet a lot of new people in grades higher or lower than you which is going to be helpful in highschool. Welp, what I am trying to say is everyone should try atleast one sport because no matter how big or small theres one for everyone.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Few.Favorite.Quotes.
1)Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie underneath the start and listen to your heartbeat, and who will stay awake just to watrch you sleep.Wait for the guy who will kiss your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you're in sweats, who holds your hand iun front of your friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without make-up on. Wait for the guy who will constantly remind you of how much he cares for you and ow how lucky he is to have you, and who will turn to his friends and say, "That's her."
2)If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy enough for her.
3)You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
4)If you love me let me know, if not please gently let me go.
5)I don’t forgive people because I’m weak. I forgive them because I’m strong enough to know people make mistakes.
6)Never ask "What's wrong?" if you dont really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand if you going to break my heart. Never say you're going to if you never plan to start.Never look into my eyes if your going to lie. Never say hello if you really mean goodbye. Never say "I love you" if you don't really mean it. Because I might do something crazy, like actually believe it.
7)If a woman asks you a question, it’s better to tell her the truth because chances are she’s asking you because she already knows the answer.
8)One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who saw your flaws, but valued them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserved it. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t.
9)Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give you a baby. Give her a house, she will give you a home. Give her groceries, she will give you a meal. Give her a smile, she will give you her heart. So if you give her crap, be ready to receive much more than what you're giving her
2)If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy enough for her.
3)You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
4)If you love me let me know, if not please gently let me go.
5)I don’t forgive people because I’m weak. I forgive them because I’m strong enough to know people make mistakes.
6)Never ask "What's wrong?" if you dont really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand if you going to break my heart. Never say you're going to if you never plan to start.Never look into my eyes if your going to lie. Never say hello if you really mean goodbye. Never say "I love you" if you don't really mean it. Because I might do something crazy, like actually believe it.
7)If a woman asks you a question, it’s better to tell her the truth because chances are she’s asking you because she already knows the answer.
8)One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who saw your flaws, but valued them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserved it. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t.
9)Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give you a baby. Give her a house, she will give you a home. Give her groceries, she will give you a meal. Give her a smile, she will give you her heart. So if you give her crap, be ready to receive much more than what you're giving her
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Big.Mistake.
So I was almost text free for 4 days. But today I blew it. He didnt text me back though so maybe hes mad at me? Anyways, today I fould out something very unbelievable. While me and him were "talking" about getting together he made out with some girl he met at his wrestleing meet. I want to punch him in the face, but then again I want to thank him for making me relize what Im deff. not missing. haha, hes such a joke. Boys are dumb, welp atleast this one.
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Anyways, I needed some major girl time today because of what I found out about him. So I went to my friends house to do some working out. I know, 13 and works out. I really like to feeling of it, plus it helps get all of the stress and anger out of me while being dumb and young with my friend. We did a lot of things from head to toe full body workout. It was amazing. But now Im really tierd but I still have to shower. And on the other had I have to get up for track practice tomorrow morning. Uggh.
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My gameplan for the weekend.
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Anyways, I needed some major girl time today because of what I found out about him. So I went to my friends house to do some working out. I know, 13 and works out. I really like to feeling of it, plus it helps get all of the stress and anger out of me while being dumb and young with my friend. We did a lot of things from head to toe full body workout. It was amazing. But now Im really tierd but I still have to shower. And on the other had I have to get up for track practice tomorrow morning. Uggh.
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My gameplan for the weekend.
- Go to track
- Go to dads
- Volleyball game (STATE)
- Go back to moms
- Workout with friends.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Getting.Over.Him.
So today was was I like to call an amazing day! The weather was great and the news I found out was welp,, amazing. My friend came up to me and told me that the BS guy I used to like was just staring at me and was like lost in me. haha, Good, now he gets to see what he lost! I didnt text him at all, all day long. Nor did I even think about him! Ahhh, it feels really good to be free from that BS guy. Today we started ISATS. Uggh, wasnt too bad except for Science! I felt like I knew nothing at all. It was dumb. Ohh well though. The ISAT peroids are my favorite EVER. haha. Anyways, I seen this new guy today... I feel like I get all strawberry faced when I see him. . . Not cool. Oh well<3
The BS boy
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I have a HUGE problem about this though. I feel like if he tried talking to me again I would fall all over again! I really need some help on relizing how to stay away from a sisuation like that. I mean I want to be friends with him ever though he screwed me over,,, Its just that I dont want to fall for the same game hes played on me twice! Obvisuly, Im not completly over him, Nor do I ever think I will be.. But I need help!
The New Boy
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Another problem. Welp actually a few. As Ive stated before my friend has to biggest crush on him. Yesterday she told me that she thinks he might actually like her back... Of course I want her to have a boyfriend and all, Id rather her have one than me but I just dont want her to have a relationship with the guy I like. I understand she doesnt want me having one with him either. So one of us are going to have to suck it up and deal with it. But she talks to him,, and I have no classes with him and hes usually at lunch detention for not getting homework done. And she texts him all the time. Ever since he got a new number we havent talked... Which has been for like a month. So I think she has this in the bag.
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I have noticed that no one has commented on any of my blogs. It makes me feel boring. Please comment so I dont stop doing this because I actually like it.
Lots of love- That.One.Girl.
The BS boy
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I have a HUGE problem about this though. I feel like if he tried talking to me again I would fall all over again! I really need some help on relizing how to stay away from a sisuation like that. I mean I want to be friends with him ever though he screwed me over,,, Its just that I dont want to fall for the same game hes played on me twice! Obvisuly, Im not completly over him, Nor do I ever think I will be.. But I need help!
The New Boy
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Another problem. Welp actually a few. As Ive stated before my friend has to biggest crush on him. Yesterday she told me that she thinks he might actually like her back... Of course I want her to have a boyfriend and all, Id rather her have one than me but I just dont want her to have a relationship with the guy I like. I understand she doesnt want me having one with him either. So one of us are going to have to suck it up and deal with it. But she talks to him,, and I have no classes with him and hes usually at lunch detention for not getting homework done. And she texts him all the time. Ever since he got a new number we havent talked... Which has been for like a month. So I think she has this in the bag.
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I have noticed that no one has commented on any of my blogs. It makes me feel boring. Please comment so I dont stop doing this because I actually like it.
Lots of love- That.One.Girl.
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