Screwed.Over.Once.Again.

There was this boy. I liked him since school started,, but he dated 2 of my bestfriends. As you can see that was a huge problem. I had a rule about dating people that my friends have dated. Nor would I even think about dating him while they were dating... But with him none of that mattered and all of my rules went out the window. But I really liked this guy. I think I fell inlove with him. Yes, I'm only 13 years young but I believe that it doesn't matter how old or young you are... You can't stop your heart from loving. We started texting while he was dating my bestfriend.. welp when he dated both of them. &I really started havin feelings for him. I thought I could tell that he liked me to because he would text me more than anyone else and we would talk all night long. He would tell me all of his problems and when I told him mine he listened and seem really interested. Then he got done dating my friend. We started talking more and playing some pretty interesting games of 21 questions. Then he told me he thought I was flirting with him when him and my friend broke up. I said no and that if I was flirting he would know it. But then once I looked back at everything I relized.... I fell inlove with him. It was pathic. All of that was towards the beggining of the school year and it is now the middle of the year. We started talking about dating.. but I knew it was nothing true. He started calling me and even though i knew it wasnt true, I still couldnt help myself from hopeing it was. Then he made me really mad because he knew how I felt about him and about how hurt I was when he dated my friends and not me. Of course he told me he didnt know and how sorry he was.. Then about a month later he was with a different girl. At first he didnt tell me about her.... but I already knew because it was my bestfriends sister! About a week pasted and he was still flirting with me acting like he didnt have a girlfriend. So I brought the topic up. He didnt really have anything to say about it though. After that I didnt want amything to do with him. I deleted his number and removed him from my life. About 2 months pasted and I was done and moved on. I started talking to other guys and felt so good about myself. Then he texted me... As soon as I found out it was him, My stomach dropped and I started all over with the feelings. I told myself that I wasnt going to be his second choice,, back up plan,, rebound nothing. So I was just friends with him. We texted everyday and then he became my bestfriend. Then the feelings started coming back. Now were towards the end of the school year. So 2 weeks ago he started flirting with me. I was used to this because we always flirted. But then he told me he loved me. My heart dropped from my stomach. Of course everytime he texted me that already happened but this time.... it never came back up. I told him that I loved him to. This was a HUGE move on my part because I have never even told a boyfriend that I loved him. I had to ask him something though,, I asked if he was going to play me.(Like he did before) &he said that he wasnt like that. I believed him. I couldnt tell any of my friends about this nor about me liking him.(they always talked about how much they hated him but I really knew that they all liked him.) So I kept it to myself. He wasnt only a guy I loved... he was also my bestfriend so I trusted him with everything. But I always felt like he was imbarrsed to tell his friends that he liked me. He got SO mad at me. He couldnt believe that I thought that. But I did and I couldnt take it back until I knew the truth. He told me that none of his friends would care... Like my friends would they hated him but I still grew some balls and told them. It made me really upset. So I think he told his friends,,, but im still not 100% positive. He did tell me that he wanted to date me but he wasnt going to ask me out over the phone. & hes in 8th grade and im in 7th so we didnt see eachother. We had this big ilove you more fights for like 4 nights. and he said he loved me more than words and feelings could compare to. I thought he really did love me.. but boy was I wrong. One night he just stopped texting me. I guess he got bored. It was 3 days that he didnt text me but it felt like a lifetime. He said that he lost his phone. I thought and still do think that was a bowl of bs. Then he told me that he loves me. So I thought everything was fine. The next message proved me wrong. He said that he loved me but doesnt want to date. My stomach dropped, not in the good way. I wanted to cry. Then the next day he told me that I looked hot at school. I wanted to kill this kid for all of the games. But this time it only took 3 days for me to love him again and for him to "love me". I dont want to get played again. I dont know how to stop him from coming into my heart and breaking down my walls again. It makes me want to cry. I can barley go a day without talking to him or else Im sad. Hes the only one I think about all day long. Hes never off my mind. I cant help it. Im not going to let him get to me but its so hard becasue all he has to do is say hey and im back in the plams of his hands. Im crushed.
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